Some Prose & A Poem

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(From "Panes of the Heart" 2009)

Pamela Stokes Eggleston
May 11, 2023
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I. Adoration

That’s what I spoke to you

Until your last breath

Thats how I knew you

But with few regrets

That’s how I saw you

My comfort, my confidante, my friend

That’s how you were you

To me, until the end./

Yes, I adored you

Sometimes while you were sick

Yes, I revered you

The pulse of love ran thick

Yes, I worshipped you

In life and in memory

Yes, I have taken you

For granted most thoughtlessly.

II. Devotion

While you were alive

I reveled in your compassion

While you were with me

I swelled with your devotion

While you were near me

I never felt lonliness

While you took care of me

I only bled happiness./

When you became ill

I couldn’t fathom that you’d leave

When you weren’t you

It was arduous for me to breathe

When you got sick

I assumed you’d get well

When you didn’t get well

On my imagined horrors I would dwell.

III. Veneration

After you departed

I felt alone and odd

After you went away

I was very angry with God

After you left me

I floundered in self pity

After you went home

I began to worship me./

You, now an element of the afterlife

I was dependent no more

You, now an element of the heavens

I can surely float through celestial doors

You, now a part of Eden

Have abetted me in discerning

You, now a partaker of nirvana

I will never cease my learning…

About you

About me,

About love, and thus

About God.

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Ivy-Rose Opal
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May 12Liked by Pamela Stokes Eggleston

This is beautiful, it both broke my heart and swelled it with love. Tears sting my eyes. Thank you for sharing this. It has put into words emotions I could not. I have sent it to family already

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