Where I Went

(from "Panes of the Heart," 2009)

I knew who I was but I don’t know where I went.

I was a woman who was sure of herself, strong in character, self assured.

Where I went I cannot tell, my strength has been stripped from me.

My assurances were stolen from me.

Who is the culprit?

Me.

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I must look for who I was;

This will be difficult for I don’t know where I went.

Where did I go?

What I do know are fear and weakness.

Fear replaced the love in me.

Weakness attacked the courage in me.

I understand.

I know why I went but do not know where.

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Where do I search for where I went?

First, I must learn why I was born and why I was offered this blessed life.

This will be hard because I do not realize how lucky I am.

If I only knew where I went, I would know admiration again.

But know I do not.

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Where did I go?

The answer is in who I was.